Day 7 Of Reformation

I love my life.

I cannot believe how much joy I have been feeling since this reformation began. Truthfully, alot of it probably has to do with the fact that I now have help for Lindsay.

Next week the home is having an Open House to welcome her and us to their family. It will be a God day, a prophetic day. I am very excited about it because it is a day to celebrate His miraculous provision. I have to choose to keep looking at it this way, on the days that I really miss her, or worse yet, feel guilty.

Last Friday night, I was not able to get to the home to see her, and so I called her to talk to her. Well, really talk at her, cause she never answers me back.
Its really hard to keep a conversation going on the phone with someone who doesn't make any sounds back!! Anyways, I got off the phone and cried, telling Alyssa how much I missed her. She said, "Mom, lets just go down there then"

I knew this time, I needed not to, because if I did, I would be responding out of guilt, instead of just wanting to. So, I let myself cry, spoke life over myself and chose to reject any feelings of judgement about what kind of mom I was.

Even as I am writing this, somehow the words are really blurry and there is wet stuff on my cheeks. How annoying! How did I get here? I started with saying, I love my life, and now I'm crying! There goes Jehovah sneaky again! It only takes Him a moment to go deep and bring healing. I love that about Him.

I have had the best 7 days, it has been much easier than I expected. Don't you love it that God's power is perfected in our weakness. It really takes all the pressure off, and allows us to just follow and obey His promtings.

I have more to say, but I'll put that on my regular blog.

Keep pressing in team!


Thank You God! You make my life great!